Maternity Photo - Sneak Peek

Oh my, I am so in love with the sneak peek pics from our maternity pictures from this weekend. I cannot wait to see more. I love the black and white look and my little T-man's smile. I just had to share.

PS - I found this photographer through a living social deal and I must say I am really really pleased with her work. She was super nice during the whole shoot and made T-man laugh the whole time. These pictures were all taken by her.

 

Hair update

I haven't done an update on my hair in a while and I am proud to say that I am finally BSL (bra strap length). This is the longest my hair has ever been (cue happy dance).

Well, I am just touching the top of my bra but I am still claiming it :), I like to revel in all victories even the small ones. I am right on track to make it to MBL by Christmas.

I am only about 4 inches away from my ultimate goal of waist length, so psyched. Once I get there, I plan to trim an inch or so every relaxer until I have healthy beautiful even looking ends. As I near the 1 year anniversary of my hair journey, I am really pleased with my progress and will definitely continue to take good care of my hair.

You obviously want to see the picture :). This was taken in early May right after my relaxer.

I am actually 5 weeks post right now. I meant to write this post a month ago. Life gets busy I guess. I plan to do a one year anniversary post next month after I relax. I am hoping to be full BSL, we'll see.

Eleven

 I was tagged by faith over at life, love & marriage. She is such a fun blogger (I swear I want to comment on all her post because they are just that good and I really enjoy them). We totally would be awesome friends in real life. Anyway, here are my answers to her 11 questions:

1. If you had 10 minutes to be on a popular television show, which show would it be? Hmmm not sure, probably American Idol. I love to sing tho I suck at it.

2. If you could have one superpower what would it be? I totally would want to be invisible like Faith said. Told you we have so much in common.

3. What TV show are you embarrassed about watching? That would have to be Keeping up with the Kardashian. I don't condone their behavior but they really are entertaining.

4. What is your favorite book? I really don't read, I know lame. I used to love reading whodunnit type novels, Agatha Christie any one.

5. What is the worst flavor of ice cream? I recently had some pomegranate and berry mix, don't try it, disgusting.

6. What is your favorite condiment? Ketchup.

7. What is the ideal comfort food? Tuna salad sandwich, I can eat that stuff everyday every meal.

8. What is the most important meal of the day? They say breakfast and I have to agree. I don't miss it for anything.

9. What is your dream job? Actress, I wouldn't feel like I am working. Imagine getting pampered everyday and pretend to be someone different every time. Dream

10. What subject do you wish you had paid more attention to in school? History, thank goodness for google I can get caught up whenever I need to.

11. What musical instrument do you wish you could play? A guitar, rock stars just look so freaking cool with their guitars.

A little photoshoot

My friend Adrienne attempted to take some maternity pictures of us while she was here a few weeks ago. T-man did not cooperate of course (it would be too easy). We did get some pretty fun shots. Luckily we have another opportunity to get some maternity pics tomorrow with a local photographer.

So we started in the bedroom, I was thinking casual pictures of us. T-man started screaming and didn't calm down until he had the Ipod touch in his hand.

I do like this picture of us a lot, I guess it is casual

 Yep he's moved onto the Ipod touch

 Good pic of me and the hubby but you can't even see T-man's face

 Then he decided to hug the baby, I love this kid

Then we moved outside in an attempt to get some better shots. Our backyard is awesome for pictures.

T-man only lasted about a picture before he started going crazy

 Look at him fighting here, I'll spare you the other crazy pictures

I on the other hand was not fussy so I took some solo shots while the hubby calmed T-man down :)

We moved to the front of the house to try for better shots, still no success. You can just see the look of defeat on our faces here

He is still the cutest kid ever my little boy, just wasn't interested in taking pics with us today

I went back outside to take a few bare belly pictures and this is my favorite of the bunch

Well, I hope T-man will cooperate when we have our actual maternity shoot tomorrow.

Memorial day weekend fun

We had so much fun over memorial day weekend.

Saturday was just a chill day, we spent the day relaxing and catching up on some sleep and of course reflecting on life (which always happens when you are not busy). I enjoyed that break from the rush of life.

Sunday was our fun day. My friend Melissa was in town and we met up with her at her aunt's house near the water. They have a boat, need I say more. We got there by lunch time and spent the entire day near the water. We even got to go on a boat ride. T-man was in heaven, he spent more than 5 hours outside and near the water his favorite places to be.

Their backyard is awesome and backs up to the bay. They have a small man-made beach, swings and hammocks. The perfect chill place. As soon as we got there, I put T-man in his bathing suit and he was off. We chilled for a while then went for a boat ride. T-man loved it.

Yep, it was that much fun, I was swinging from a tree :)

 My boys chilling by the man made beach in the backyard

An airplane flew by, T-man was so excited

   A little unsure about the fish getting so close to him

T-man saying "Hi" to the fish

 Getting to know the fish, he named him Thomas

Getting ready for a boat ride, I love that you can see the flag on the boat

 T-man's first boat ride

 T-man got to be a captain and conduct the boat for a minute :)

 These two are hilarious. They were pretending to be behind bars :)

It was such a a great day and such a nice treat to hang out with Melissa and Deb.

Monday I went to brunch with my sisters. After lunch, hubby and I met with some friends to celebrate a birthday followed by a movie. Another somewhat chilled day. T-man spent the afternoon with my mom and took a 3 hour nap. I guess we wore him out on Saturday.

With my sisters

 It was such a great weekend. A nice combination of chilled and hang out time.

Our angel's due date

Today, May 26, is the due date of our angel baby. I remember that dreadful day of November 2nd when we couldn't find the heartbeat and my heart broke into a million pieces. I remember all the tears. Today I sit, 7 months pregnant with my rainbow of hope still crying over the loss of my angel and missing him/her terribly.

I thought that because I am pregnant again and all is going well that I will not feel this way. But here I sit, sad, wondering what would have happened if angel was still in my belly thriving. I will always love you sweet angel and I will forever be grateful and thankful to have carried you for those few weeks.

A coworker of mine asked me why I was such a happy pregnant woman and why I never complained. I had to think about it for a second, I do complain (mostly just to my husband), I do have aches, pain,  discomfort, mood swings, and I am tired all the time. Ultimately I realized that pregnancy after a loss is a different kind of ball game. Everyday I feel blessed for my growing baby. Yes I have heartburn and I am aching, yes I am tired and uncomfortable, and yes I have a crazy active toddler and life. But all those things will not take away from the joy I feel for carrying this rainbow baby, all they really represent to me is a reminder that I have a growing and healthy baby in my belly.

I guess the answer to my coworker's question is that I don't complain about my pregnancy because I have lost my innocent naivete about pregnancy (and I am so jealous of woman who still have that). I am not expecting a baby (because it implies a guaranteed happy ending) but I am simply hoping for a baby to take home come August. I fear that if I complain It will take away from all the joy I am feeling every step of the way and that's all I ever want to remember about this pregnancy.

So bring on the aches and pain, they will not hold me down. It's not all rainbows and unicorns but that's all I ever want to remember. I think what my angel baby taught me was how to love more fiercely than I ever imagined and how to be grateful for life's little blessings. Thank you sweet angel of mine. I will never forget you and will love you forever and always.

I know that I am truly blessed to have one living healthy child and another healthy little one on the way. So today I count my blessings:

Blessing number 1 - the boy who made me mom

Blessing number 2 - the boy who restored my hope

"Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, today is a gift"

Hello third trimester

Well hello third trimester, it is so nice to see you. I am so happy to be here. We are getting closer and closer to holding bebe deux...Ahhhhhhhhh. My heart is overflowing with joy.

Things are moving along nicely. Baby is growing right on track, YAY. The glucose test went well, double YAY. I really like this milestone because if the baby was born at this point, we have a 90% survival rate and those are some really sweet odds. Please stay in and continue to bake my sweet boy, I want you to be fully baked plus I am really loving our special time together.

27 weeks with bebe deux, YAY growing belly

28 weeks with bebe deux, I heart you third trimester

 And just because I was feeling sexy with my shorts :)

That was a lot of YAY for one post, I am just so excited and happy about this pregnancy right now.